Up into the attic you go ^.^

http://nada-mucho.blogspot.com/

Not gonna lie,

I'm not okay going to bed knowing you're not in the next room.
Feels kinda like I'm missing a big chunk of myself-- as corny as that sounds....
And those random waves of missing you and being sad and wishing you were here..
Lol omfg so fing annoying.
I mean I expected to feel like this but I didn't know it was going to be this hard

SNAP OUT OF IT ROSE!!!

Hahahahaha okay you're kinda cute.

I'm feeling good.

Junior year has been good to me so far!!! Granted it's only been 4 days but fuck it. I feel good vibes. I wish other people would be a bit more positive on their outlook on this year too. It's all about perspective you pessimistic mother fuckers ^_^ !!!!! I got a huuuuge load of homework today but 6 hours at Lee's Review working non-stop did me good. I'm very glad I didn't go home to try to do get all that stuff done. I still have some left but fuck that I think I deserve a good hour or two of break time... Physics test tomorrow. I am all kinds of nervous. There are some problems that I just do.not.know.what.the.fuck.to.do. But I'm going to try going in to see Jensvold and lunch and get some help.

My feelings towards my classes so far:

1. APUSH: The teacher seems very laid back and understanding. I just wish we'd learn a little bit more lol. I love history and I'd like to l-e-a-r-n some of it before the year is over. But you're great Mr. Watkins, you are! Very glad I start the day with such a relaxed class :)

2. MACH5: Mr. Brose, you are also quite fantastic. You remind me of a more livelier and less-lazier version of Mr. Scaefer whic is quite the compliment because I really enjoyed last year's math class with him. I liked his grading policy, his lecture-style, homework load, and logical tests aka you're tested on what you're taught. Not on material that is pretty much what you learned on steroids -_- Hopefully Mr. Brose, your tests are like that too. I look forward to learning math from you.

3. English 3H: It's pretty dull, not going to lie. It has that Galindo feel to it. Not that the teacher is dull, more like what we're doing right now. Probably because we're getting caught up on all that summer work shit. Hopefully I learn a lot because English has always always been my favorite subject :) Looking fwd to reading certain books on our reading list for the year!!

4. Journalism I: I have tolerable people around me and at my table. So that's good. Although the temp Mrs. Spencer could try to be a little bit more ~fun~ when she lectures on and on. I doze off dude. But I've been learning some interesting things. Especially because this a field that is at the top of my list for what I want to be when I grow up... I be liking the subject more and more!

5.Korean 4: Boring as hell. Jasmine and Sharon help me survive...just barely. Fuck. I hate Korean class. I hate writing in korean. It's so time consuming T.T But Mr. Hwang is a fucking cutie. And no homework. Score!!!!!

6. Ap Physics B: Defintely not as bad as people suspected it might be for me. I've met some very nice, smart people. Kinda geeky. But aren't we all!!! People are very helpful ^_^ The downer is the teacher, really. This class is basically one big self study. But the hw is fucking easy. Everythings online and we don't need to show work. Plus a lot of the questions and their answers show up on google :) WORRED 4 TEST TMRW HOWEVER.

Yeah. School will be just fine.
Really glad that all the requirement classes are out of the way
 I'm able to take classes I have actual interest in...

1. You still suck shit. But I'm completely over it right now. You said I get over things quickly. I figured it was about time I did.
2. Lol god..............................
3. Ignore me it's cool.

"I believe in the profession of journalism.

I believe that the public journal is a public trust; that all connected with it are, to the full measure of their responsibility, trustees for the public; that acceptance of a lesser service than the public service is betrayal of this trust.

I believe that clear thinking and clear statement, accuracy and fairness are fundamental to good journalism.

I believe that a journalist should write only what he holds in his heart to be true.

I believe that suppression of the news, for any consideration other than the welfare of society, is indefensible.

I believe that no one should write as a journalist what he would not say as a gentleman; that bribery by one's own pocketbook is as much to be avoided as bribery by the pocketbook of another; that individual responsibility may not be escaped by pleading another's instructions or another's dividends.

I believe that advertising, news and editorial columns should alike serve the best interests of readers; that a single standard of helpful truth and cleanness should prevail for all; that the supreme test of good journalism is the measure of its public service.

I believe that the journalism which succeeds best -- and best deserves success -- fears God and honors Man; is stoutly independent, unmoved by pride of opinion or greed of power, constructive, tolerant but never careless, self-controlled, patient, always respectful of its readers but always unafraid, is quickly indignant at injustice; is unswayed by the appeal of privilege or the clamor of the mob; seeks to give every man a chance and, as far as law and honest wage and recognition of human brotherhood can make it so, an equal chance; is profoundly patriotic while sincerely promoting international good will and cementing world-comradeship; is a journalism of humanity, of and for today's world."

-- Walter Williams

Wow, time flies

Stop crying. He's not gone yet.
............
.
..
.....
.
.... .....

So,

The differences are too much.
The gaps are too wide.
Running out of steam trying to pretend like it's okay
ha ha ha ha
FUCK IT C'EST LA VIE

Here and There

Happy. Unhappy. Content. Discontent.
Satisfied. But wanting more.
Shut the hell up heart
-_-
No one asked for your opinion. Ha ha h aha ha.

HOW AM I STILL FUCKING THINKING ABOUT YOU? HOW. WHY.????
I KNOW BETTER. BUT I APPARENTLY DON'T CARE.
.............

???????????/
?
??????????????????????????? ?? Seriously.


Wanted: Loyalty.
Despite all the new and interesting people we meet, we'll still be each others'  number 1.
But I guess I'm asking for too much.

Going Back

Dear Blog,
Please don't take it personally.
You have been and always will be one of my most faithful companions.
But I think it's time we took a break.
I've had an inkling for some good old-fashioned pen on paper
It's time I satisfied said need.
Privacy here I comez
Sincerely,
Your Dutiful Author

Simplify. Organize.

Good company is really all that matters.

Ma List Fetish

1. OUT OF SIGHT OUT OF MIND.... Couple more days until I will probably never have to see you again if I didn't want to. I've tried but I'm really not that strong.
2. You've changed so much since the beginning of sophomore year.. I miss who you used to be but w/e. The past has passed.
3. SAT!!!!!!!#2498204PO8234O82I09O1P2U3JFNJASDNFVASDFA
4. Chem :(
5. Bye. Bye. and Bye.
6. I'm oddly okay. The occasional pang of sadness because of all the distance between me and everyone but eh. Happens to all of us.
7. *Determined*
8. After some extensive as mofucken researching... I've found my dream college.
9. Really wishing I cared about my grades Freshman/Beginning of Soph year..............................
10. *PERSONAL PEP TALK* I CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!

The end. I hope everyone has a nice day.

Currently:

Not lonely. Not sad. Not anti-social.
Just extremely indifferent.

O my fuck boys are so stupid.
HAVE SOME RESPECT. DIGNITY. QUALITY.
PEER PRESSURE IS FOR BITCHES.

Reminders:

1. Strive to be more of myself-- not more of who I wish I could be.
2. Excess of anything is never good. Ever.
3. For each negative thing I want to say, say something positive.
4. Ask why, not what.
5. Stop worrying
6. The future is just as important as the present. And vice versa.
7. Not everyone is the same.

*_*

I love this feeling

It's like: you're full but not too full where you feel like throwing up... It's the best. Thanks for BC Justin ^_^

SAT can suck my dick.... If I could just raise my math..............sigh

1 we are officially strangers
oh and you too
wow im just alienating people all ova the place dis summer
2 holy fuck why did i think i could handle so many things simultaneously for the summer
3 weeeeeeeeeee next weekend weeeeeeeeee
4 been getting back to the movie watching mood lately
5 resulting in all my cultivated study habits and all the discipline i've drilled into myself so strictly past few weeks going down the drain.. T_T
6 BUT I CANT HELP IT THERE ARE SUDDENLY SO MANY I NEED TO WATCH
7 im actually watching one right now. heh heh
8 chem is fucking me up the butt right now
9 left my pencil case and calculator in freddie's car... and lost all will to study today lol
10 bye

People who put others before themselves.

:')

I HATE SAT MATHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FUCK
I like the reading. I like the writing. I wanna punch the math in face. omg

"Nosce Te Ipsum"

1. Happy Birthday June!!!!!!!!!!
2. What happened man...........
3. Surrealllllllllllllllllll l0l

I will never learn my lesson....
Best friends aren't made in a couple month's time.
No.Matter.How.Much.I.Think.This.Case.Will.Be.Different.
I'm really annoyed at myself that I let myself think this one would be different.
It's a fact. It's not possible.
A couple months can not give you the time necessary to build a solid foundation.
I gave this advice to a friend earlier today.
And then I realized how much I needed it too

It was my fault for expecting too much
It seems to be recurring flaw of mine.

AH

SO SCARED FOR TOMORROW. Yet so excited. *_*

Fina fucking lly.

Lee's as usual. Today seemed extra long.. Probably because of Math. Yeah Math can go suck a big fat fucking dick. It's so boring omg. But I love Mr. Lee :)))) and Master Jennifer hahahahaha. She hustled us today so bad...anyways. Today was the day I finally saw John Lee since a year ago lolol didn't change one bit so funny. Met up June at her house after Lee's. IT'S BEEN 2 LONG MAN. MISSED YA. Then got dropped off at H-mart and met up John John and Frank. Heheheh frank. Thennnn after loitering around the plaza -_- and lots of useless unnecessary complications we went to Jiang's kb. Started off slow but picked up speed later on I guess hahahah. FUCKING JOHN AND FRANK ALMOST BURNED THE HOUSE DOWN DOWN L O L. And I got to see my baby booj claudia and some of the other DBHS guys. Wow I haven't kicked it with them in foreeeeevvvvvvvvver. :( Poop. We was still missing h j and e though...

Left. Got in a fight with Robin -_- sigh -_- arrived home. Then. Ta-da. Now time for ic3 src~~~

Where my DBHS girls at -_-

Lees in the morning................10 - 5:30 WOOT 7 HOURS OF SAT PREP. Gotta love it... But I had reading today which is my favorite subject plus I love Mr. Pyun hahaha he's so awkward and funny o my. Don't know anyone in my class though..but it's all good. Make new friends then~ Afterwards Angella came over and we went down to walnut to Freddie's kb. I.have.the.lowest.t. T_T Twas fun! Hope everyone had fun at shikhas too hahahaha.

Played cupid later on in the night ^_~
Time to do ic3 homework. And cram in 50 new vocab words by tomorrow. $0 3XC1T3Z!!!!


PS. Despite trying to cram in 200 words last night for the vocab test taken this morning.... I passes. PRETTY PROUD. Gives me hope that I might actually be able to everything...........-_- ugh when I think about it it's so overwhelming but I'm doing pretty good in everything so yeah. JUST 4 MORE WEEKS OF SS YOU CAN DO IT ROSE

BACK

Hi hi long time no blog. Summer...............is not that bad. Despite 2 summer schools, SAT, and summer homework for my classes next year..........I don't know. I feel productive. I like being productive.

Just to get this off my chest:
1. ....I really thought you were trying to change things. I guess not
2. Gtfo of my head T_T
3. I can feel you giving up. Whatever. I give up to.
4. I.love.you.dude. ... Dude.

Went on a 2 hour hiking trek with Angella today heh heh love her so much ^_^ Good fucking talks man. I love hanging out with you sigh you make me miss Ayala so much-_- I don't even care for anyone there besides you buuuuut still its good enough for me l0l



what a shitty view

i am very confused

Publicizing my feelings. Rare.

LOL JK FELT TOO NAKED

What I need right now.... is some motherfucking privacy.

Wow if I had a car.. the amount of time I'd spend in bookstores.. and loiter. And read a billion books without buying a single one. I cannot wait

TED talk: Importance of Perception

"We need more time appreciating what already exists, and less time agonizing over what else we can do."

TED Talks:

I feel so inspired and motivated right now..*_*

The Unconscious Mind

I'm done chasing after you. I'm so fucken done. I love you. But I give up. Sorry.

On admitting your faults:

Get over the ridiculous idea that "because you meant no wrong, you did no wrong." No one fucking cares about what you meant to do. The only the thing that matters is what you did do. Understand. Apologize. Move on.

It drives me crazy when people refuse to apologize or plead guility because they "did nothing wrong."
Yes, maybe nothing wrong from your POV. But the world doesn't revolve around you.-_-

I. Really. Don't. Give. A. Fuck. Anymore.

Day 78

Hahahahahaha roy ktfod at lees..so funny. Look at his leg. LOL automatic shit day today-_- thanks to the rain....... Skewl. Lee's. Homeeee. School supply shopping hehehe my favorite!!! then came home... Organized all my shit. Moved everything from crap binder to new binder ^_^ then.....watched Lost in Translation. Good fucking movie. So subtle so good.. I was surprised how satisfied I was with the ending. Usually I woulda been like R U SRS but the ending was...perfect. Omg so funny in some parts I died from laughter honestly heh hehehehe heh heh heh twas very unexpected~ SPEECH IN 3 DAYS. I AINT EVEN CLOSED TO READY... nervous af:( sigh... and I have a shitload of editing/revising to do on my halfassed rough draft of the essay... + math test. + bio test. +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ /dead/. loljk. Robin getting his car soon though so theres one thing to look fwd to this week...... :) so tired. good night.

Day 77

Yeap....just another ordinary average fucking retarded laughfilled Saturday with Jenny Kim HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Claudia and June were supposed to come but they ended up not coming...:( Watched The Tourist (2nd time for me, 1st for Jenny) while pigging out on chips and carrots.  L OL I never ate so many carrots in one sitting like I did yesterday.. It was so funny watching Jenny react to the movie and I'm all like heh heh heh I know what's gonna happen next heh heh heh *_* Unleashed the squid HAHAHAHAHAHA and took the fucking funniest videos of Jenny when she's on the computer loloolo omg I was crying. She's all lurkin on fb giggling to herself. lgodlfgadijkfandshfdafhahahahaha omg. And then she raped my facebook-_- -_- -_- Sigh... then we made ramyun lolz yeah well that was my saturday...... good shit ^_^

Day 76

Wow lagged this for 3 days....Starting with Friday: Went to school... was sad to see everyone having such crap fridays:( lol my Friday at school was pretty  good... Classes went by fast and I didn't really do shit in any of them. I'm so nervous for the persuasive speech in Galindo.. I'm the third person to go so I have so little time to prepare... FuUuuuuu. And it's like over 100 points gg-_- I really hope I do good. Really really really hope so.....Anyways, went home after school. Tired af. Knocked out. Woke up around 6ish 7ish idk and went to Terry's. Then got food. Then Lanny's. Left pretty early. Came home. Ktfoooood

L O L

teeheeitsclaudy: IDk
teeheeitsclaudy: GASK A REAL GUY
teeheeitsclaudy: im juts a fkae
teeheeitsclaudy: LOLOl

Rose Kim: HAHAHA
Rose Kim: AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Rose Kim: AHHAHAAHHAHAAH

Day 75

Faggots heheh roy chris josh

Lol they're so stupid.... It looks like they're looking at something amazing outside but really they're staring at their reflections. AHAHAHAHAHAHA SO GAY. Today was miles better than yesterday. Like predicted, I am completely recovered from the terribleness of yesterday... School. Lee's. Got picked up. Ate Subways. Watched some friends. Computer. Fin.

Yesssssssssss tomorrows friday

So out of it
with no intentions of getting back in of it............................

Day 74

Callus thing where my pencil always pushes against when I write...it hurts ;_; Today was a shit day. Woke up suck as fuck....I hate how I get sick so randomly omg.. yesterday I was perfectly fine. Then today I wake up with a head full of unlimited snot:( School was ..less than enjoyable. I spent the majority of my day hovering around the tissue boxes of my classrooms lol. I hate when people try to help me when I don't even ask-_- it sounds retarded but that's just me... Which is pretty hypocritical because I really like helping people but I don't like people helping me, unless I ask..hahahaha. After school idk people kept trying to help or whatever but it just made me mad-_- so I blew up lolz my baddddd. Didn't have to go to lee's today though!!! Mama picked me up from school.Came home and ktfod. Woke up. Ate some healthy wok. Computer. Homework. This. Friday come quickly

Pretty much

I don't
I want
I should
I won't
I don't feel like
I wish
I hope
I really need
But at the same time don't want
I shouldn't

You never
You won't
You're fucking
You lost
You were never
You have

Yeah. More or less

“Look man I’m sorry I’ve been cursing. But fuck that shit I gotta express myself bitch”

— 50 Cent

Day 73

GOOD DAY TODAY. Late start. Didn't have to change for total body... Overall good vibessss heheheh. School was the uuuusual. Lee's. Did work. Went to class. Finished at7. Then did more work... Left Lee's around 9. Got mcdees yumyumyummmmm came home. Watched some shows. ~fin~ Weekend hurry up already!!!!

Day 72

Demon eyes *_*

Wasn't taken yesterday or today but whatever lolll. Monday was whatever. School was school as always. Went to Lee's. Finished my fucking massive amount of homework at 9pm..............Got picked up. Went home. Watched some friends. The end

Day 71

Stairway to Heaven...?Heh

Church. Came home. Jason picked me up. Plans totally backfired HAHAHAHAHA omg... what a bust.. ^__^V got donuts. den watched movie. Came home and left right after with bro and dad to eat dinner but we first decided to stop by the hyundai dealership... but the "quick stop" at 7 ended up being a 3 hour deal-_- and we didn't even come out with a car LOL because my dad wanted to check out other prices... went to BJs after which was around 10ish... lol late ass dinner. Den came home to a new 3D TV LOL fucken random... Or at least, for me it was.. I had no idea we were getting a TV...let alone those 3D ones o_o but we don't have channels yet. I think the TV is just gonna be used to watch stuff via the computer and Robin's xboxxxx. oOooo on our way to the dealership the clouds looked fucking dopeeeee. It looked stairs to heaven *_* go click on it and you can see the original size but yeah it was pretty cool ^_^ SCHOOL TMRW FUCK

Day 70

GAhahahahahaha sang. Cute hat. ^__^V Spent half the day hooome waiting for my mom to come back and give me a ride lolz then went to Terrys. Met up everyone there and left pretty soon. Stop at chick fil a. Then In n out. Then Lanny's nice ass house. Spent the rest of my night there sigh curfew..so I couldn't go to freddies. Anthony dropped me off at home. The End.

Good shit today

Day 69

What a goooood friday hehehehe. Went to Diamond Spa for Irene's birthday. Good shit. Played cams for 2 hours straight... holy hell lol and we didn't even realize.. Omg Silent Cams: No Rules .. I've never played a more brutal card game. Not even german torture beats it... I got punched in the nose. Irene..got bitten. Jenny and Irene showdown. Me taking Jenny's pair of Qs every single time HAHAHA Me raging on Adriana. Irene raging on herself. Ashley Heather Adriana just chillen in the background. HAHAHA hogging the ice room.. *_* yeeeeee. Good food. Good laughs. Good showering time  L O L Heather damn what a body you have.................hehehe. I just realized we didn't eat patbingsoo..:( But we beasted the cakes Adriana got for Irene LOL again, happy birthday Irene I ruv you

I've had enough.

You better have a fucking good excuse

Day 68

Happy birthday Irene!!! Hope you had a good 16th day. I read your tumblr post about your day today and I know it was kinda rocky but I hope in the end you had a good day<333 Onto the rest of my day... Btw I know. I take the worst pictures LOL so uncreative and irrelevant to how my day went-_- Anyways. Today was.. a little less pleasant than average... I think I totally tanked my math test today. I had a panic attack ;_; So right before the bell rang for 3rd I doublechecked to make sure I had my homework packet but... lo and behold it was gone!!:( and I freaked out and ran out of Schaefer's all the way to fucken J building because my last class was Korean and I figured I accidentally stuffed it into my korean  binder.. But I came into class and it wasn't in my binder-_- It was a test day and I didn't wanna miss out on valuable test time so I ran back to class all sad and shit and I come in panting my lungs out and found my homework packet stuck in between these other papers in my binder....omfg. So I'm like heaving and shit and I turn in the packet and get my test and ugh ajkrnsadfam,mads. Everything just went down from there. The first few questions were alright but once I got into the middle I started panicking and jskhgansadfiukjaf  omg... I started to second guess myself and everything and blaHhHHh aujgknasdfkadsfnaksfa. I'm so disappointed in myself. I should've been more prepared and studied better.-_- Anyways.. the rest of school was whatever. Lee's. Got all my stuff done except for this riddddddddddddddiculous female muscle diagram that Green gave us in tot bod fit. It's so dumb omg  you can't tell what line is pointing where and no diagram on google.com is specific enoough to help me fill out the entire thing. I've decided to just put it off till monday. Got picked up. Went grocery shopping and stalked up on food hehehehe yay *_* Came home. Cleaned my room. Semi-wrapped Irene's present. I still need to write her card. Which I will do after this. And then sleep. Peace out

It's always you

You are here. Yet so far far away. Ugh.
I don't even care anymore. And it scares me

Day 67

Lost track of the date number. Using my phone. -inserting actual words later-

Edit: Wednesday was better than usual. I don't know why but thinking back... it feels like it was a good day. Last day of CAHSEE testing.. such a shame ;_; Went to lee's afterwards. Had no homework so I got picked up by my mama asapppp. She wanted to get pho so we went to Saigon to eat. Came home. I read. Watched some friends. Got ready for bed.. and then last minute remembered I had a math test on thursday -_- so tried cramming in  10 sections of probability and statistics and yeah. Sigh. /End day

Day 66

...Sigh another late post.. -will insert what happenedon tuesday later-

Edit: Lol look at my mama so technologically advanced!!!  K sooooo tuesday..I can't really remember. School was the usual. Went to lee's.Studied. Came home. Read. Ktfo'd. Very eventful day.. LOL I think by now anyone who's kept up with my 365 now knows my average daily routine: school lees home. Yee

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Day 65

Can't remember if it means June or Jenny ...

Cahsee tomorrow yay!!! Missing 4 periods and having a lot of freetime after the test to get shit doneeee. I'm kinda worried about this math test coming up... I needs to study hard but the chapter is just so big.. *_* argh. Anyways school wasss normal. Came to lees to finish homework and stuff. I was starving the entire time:( got picked up around 6 something. Came home. Ate. Read. Watched some more Friends. Ktfod. Woke up a little while ago in a confused state.. Idk I was like trippen out and shit LOL but then I showered and I got my head straight and now I don't know what to do. Sleep or ..............? blah

Facebook

I was just about to reactivate my facebook when I realized: I spend way too much time nosing around other people's life when I should be putting that time into mine. Because let's face it, most people's daily facebook activity consists of maybe 40% socializing and 60% stalking/lurking LOL. I need to have more focus on my own life (studying, anything productive, etc;) and less on the business of others.

Day 64

No, I did not take this picture. Idk I googled 'aquarium' and this came up via flickr. I have a billion copyrighted pictures on this blog... one more won't hurt. I wonder if people ever get sued for using copyrighted things without permission.... I doubt it. Since for me, it's all soley for personal use. Anyways, my day was surprisingly nice. Went to church like usual. Left like usual. Came home, watched some more episodes of Friends (yes, I am quite the fanatic *_*), ktfod, then woke up to go eat dinner with my dad and brother. We got pacific fish grill, which made me start cravvvving a visit to the aquarium. Somebody take me!!!! After eating we went to Harkins and watched Unknown. Fuckingggggg good movie. I had to pee so bad throughout the whole movie but  I didn't wanna leave my seat and miss anything. It was that good heheheheheh. I pretty much went to the movies 3 times straight this whole weekend. WoooOOw. Friday it was planned. Saturday my mom wanted to watch King's Speech. And today my dad wanted to watch Unknown. Har har har. Now I'm home and yeah. I have to start on my essay now -_- so bye!!!

Holy. Shit.

All 10 seasons of Friends... Available for download. DVD quality. Happy early birthday to me..

MOFUCKEN KOREAN

Day 63

Date with my mama today!!! Very very successful. I kept longing to get away from everything and this helped a lot. I love my girls and everything but lately I've been distancing myself from all of them. Nothing personal though. I just.. want to get away for just a little bit.... So I hung out with my mom and it was a day well spent:) Left the house around 4ish.. got to puente. Hit F21. Shopped LOL finally new clothes.. *_* then we ate at Todai.. YumMmmm. Then my mom bought coffee and we went to amc to watch King's Speech. But before we went it the ticket guy was like "o sorry you can't bring outside drinks into the theater" so we went back to this table... And the movie was gonna start soon so I peer pressured my mom into sneaking the coffee in with her bag hAHAhAHAHAHA omg she was like trippen out about being a felon and commiting a crime and shit omg my moms so cute *_* King's Speech is. so. good. And surprisingly very funny in some parts. The speech therapist Lionel's lines were zo funny. Came hoomeeee. I'm kinda tired. But I don't want to sleep. O and btw I deactivated my facebook account. Why? I have no idea. LOL spur of the moment sort of thing.

I just want to get away
Go MIA

Day 62

School blah. Wait at school tile 4 something for my mom-_- all  by my lonesome LOL eventually got picked up... picked up angella. got some subway. went to harkins. Ate. Watched The Adjustment Bureau and Just Go With It. I liked both movies ^_^ and for some reason I laughed so hard in Just Go With It.. Honestly thinking back it wasn't even that funny but I don't know I just couldn't stop laughing HAHAHAHAHA. Good day!!! Missed you lotsssss and it was good catching up... A much needed refresher from.. just... blah. everything, I guess. If even there is anything. -_- .....nvm

Drained dry

Too tired to do anything.
Too tired to feel anything.
Too tired to say anything

IF ONLY YOU KNEW................

Day 61

I'll upload the picture the later................. Today was normal. Went to school. Ate Denny's with Josh and Henry after. Went to lee's. Got my homework done. Got picked up. Went to stater bros and bought food. Home. Ate late dinner. Reading. Ta-da

Edit: So I finally added a picture to this day. It's the book I am currently reading LOLZ the first one was good.. so. I expect a lot from the sequel hehehehehe I want to watch the movies so badly-_- but I can't find a subtitled one cause the original is in swedish...... If anyone knows   a link or anything... :')

I can only tolerate so much shit k

Day 60

Today was...like any other day. This was the only picture I took today so yeah.. It was for jasmine cause she was missing class today lol. School. Bombed the pride and prejudice test-_- sigh.... LOL went to lees. Got shit done. Went to chipotle. Waited 30 minutes in line gg. O saw jenny and vincent in line on my way out HAHA got home... Ate.. Read for a while. I fucking hate being sick

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Day 59

Skipped again. Simba *_* so fucking cute!!! yesterday was whatever. School. Lees. Finished all my homework. Went home. Watch Castle. Read a little. Then ktfooooo
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Just winging it

I am happy. I am content..... I am lost. I have no sense of direction. I didn't mind it, at first. I loved the idea of living in the moment and truly believed it was the only way to really live. Today I dared to take a glance at my future. I saw nothing. I still see nothing. I don't know what the fuck I'm doing. Living in the present costs me my future. Living in the future, costs me my present. Yep I've got it all. figured. out. -_-

Day 58

School. Lees. Home. Watch a billion movie trailers. The end

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Day 57

Wasn't taken today but whatever LOL I'm like speedtyping right now.. 10 minutes till its tomorrow-_- I'll just start off from... what was technically today.. Marvin Elijah and Terry snuck me out last night lolz danks guys ^_^V came home around 5ish... Showered. Ktfod. Woke up early for church-_-__- I was d e a  d... sigh. felt like a zombie. Went late to church so service was already in progress when I got there and it was dark and I couldn't find Jenny so I just found a random seat and knocked out.. but when the lights went on turns out Jenny was in the row of seats right next to mind...LOL shit it's 12-_- sigh.... Anyways. Left early because Jenny now has SAT classes at Inland church.. so we dropped her off. Then Jenny's mom dropped me off at home. I was knocked out in her car the whole time. Dragged myself into the house and up to my room... Slept some more. Later went out to eat dinner with my dad and Robin at Red Robins. Then Borders to buy books  ♥ ♥ It's going bankrupt........... ;_; so there was a crazy sale.. so many people. LOL Gah I always go to Borders to buy books.. even though Barnes and Nobles is closer. I'm not a big B&N fan... I prefer Borders much much more hehehehehe. Came home. Computer... Caught up with my shows now that I have sound back (still a mystery*_*) and yeah. Fucking school tomorrow-_-

Day 56

Left to Right: Jenny Me Adriana Claudia Irene Erica Heather June Becky ♥

Great day heheheheh. Happy birthday in 10 minutes claudia ♥ ♥ My day went as follows: Woke up fucking early.. because.. I don't know why. I always wake up early LOL got semi-ready.. Went to Jenny's. Ate. Computer. Talked. Laughed. Helped her stuff Claudia's present (RIP MR. BEAR) Finished getting ready. Headed off to Yard House at 5. Shitload of food. Shitload of pictures. YumMmmm.  Then back to Claudias.. which is where the real party started HAHAHA I swear we're fucking retarded... ♥ BLOOMERS LOLZ "YOU'RE DUMB." ... ogress..... creepin in the dark... gooooood shit. Everyone left around 10 ~ 11:30. Now I'm here. AND YAYAYAY MY SOUND WORKS AGAIN LOL I DONT KNOW WHY BUT IT DOES. YUAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAAYAYAYYAY OFF TO WATCH BUCKETLIST BYE

Day 55

Shitty service at my house so the picture of the day is not sending to my email. And it's almost 12 so I'm just gonna write first and add in the picture later. Good assss day today. Field trip day!!! So I got to miss 1/4 of 3rd, then all of 4th 5th and 6th. Heheheh. And Periods 1-3 zoomed by so fast::) The Macbeth Play was whatever. Really intensely sexual but I guess it gave the play a more contemporary feel.. lolz sigh I'm still moping about my broken speakers... New episode of the office is out. Can't watch it. And then over the span of a few days, there will be modern family, community, castle, desperate housewives, antm, gossip girl, 90210, nikita, etcccccccccc... Not to mention all the movies I had downloaded on my computer all lined up to watch over the weekend... Bucket List, No strings attatched. And then through a streaming site, I was gonna watch The King's Speech. And so. much. more. Fantastic. LOL ok enough I'm getting pissed at myself for being so retarded -_- Anyways. Back to the good day I had. HAHA Got back to school I think exactly at 3. Met up Jasmine. Scavanged furiously for rides to hannam to catch the bus that goes to Puente Hills Mall so that we could eat todai.... hehehehe. We were so desperate ;_; but noooooobody could give us a ride.... so we just called a  taxi. But whateva, the important thing is: we got there ^__^V we got there like 4:30ish and Todai's dinner shit didn't start till 5:30 so we just roamed around.. Looked at stuff. Talked. Went to Round 1 and took cue pictures. Then 5:30 we hit Todai... YUmMmmmmmmmmmmm we ate so much omg. It didn't feel like much but when I think about it we were at Todai eating for about 2 hours straight. hAHAHAHAHAHA shit. And I had like a billion crepes. Well, not really. I just got the crepe bread part w/e and mandarin oranges on the side *_* heheheheh and jasmine and I had a genius idea of asking for it extra crispy like genki living and wowz it was bomb. Jasmine said it was alright. But whatever.  Fuck you jasmine. LOL JK <333 I literally ate about a billion though.. The mexican lady working the station was most defintely thinking: damn. fat fuckz. I could see it in her eyes HAHA. After Todai we just roamed around the mall a little more.. Rode those moving car thingies that little kids ride. HAHAHA SO FUNNY HAHAHAAJDNSAFA Jasmine's laugh in the video.. arheafheAfgauefds made my day. Got scooped up my Jasmine's mom and I went to JAsmines house. She tried glueing fake nails on my nails.. Big fucken bust. LOL It looked so tacky and fake I ripped them off and now my nails are nasty from the glue -_- arg. My momma came. Picked me up. Came home. Clean Room. Compooooter. Can't wait 4 tomorrow. Wow I wrote a lot. I'm just kinda in the mood I guess harharhar

I die a little each time I visit hulu and see that a new episode of one of my shows has been uploaded.............. adjksfnasf,mdd because I can't watch it  because no. sound. ............ I'm dying inside

Day 55

Piece. Of. Shit. Right. Here. Sound doesn't work anymore..... No more movies for me. No more hulu for me. Wow. I'm sad:( sigh well skool was skool. I'm developing very good study skills lately hehehe I'm doing all my hw and even all the extra credit and shit hehehehe yayz. Went to lees. Fucking starvvvvving so kind jason took me to in n out!! Thanks peanut<3333 ate. Studied a little more. Came home. Excited to watch bucket list. Boom. Sound don't work. Fan fucking tastic LOL hopefurry I get an actual computer for my bday or something ;_; sigh.
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Day 54

School zoooomed by today heheheheh. Lee's. Got all my homework and extra credit done yay so productive. ... Only took me 7 hours..-_- omfg so many distractions at lees... Left lees at 9:30ish. Home. Ate. Thats me on the left lolz

Day 53

Aw shit I missed my 365 again... Its been a frequently recurring issue lately -_- LOL but as long as it gets done..right!! HAHAHA I missed so many days honestly it doesn't even matter anymore hahahahhahaha. Today was.....different. I don't know. Things felt different. Not necessarily in a bad way, but I can't really say it was in a good way. Blah. School was school. Late start day yeeeeeee. I love having lunch after 3rd ^__^V lees after. Had class. Afterwards, I was | | this close to walking out of lees with sam and sang to play with dem but I ended up chickening out because that's what I am. Big chicken. ...... AHAHAHAHA I didn't wanna upset mama kim.. :') Got home. Watched some of my shows. Regular usual compooter stuff. I be feeling the curse of chapter 8 this week.. LOLZ ashley told me she started laggin her drivers ed right before chapter 8 and now I'm right before chapter 8 and can't seem to find the willpower to continue...... Agh. I'm so lazy. HAHAHAHAHA excited for this weekend yay bye

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What makes me happy, at the moment

1. My grades.
2. I have finally started the long and grueling process of getting my driver's license
3. Peace at home

I can live with that

Day 52

Went to Terrys. Watched Amelie. Ate a shitload of almonds. Left pretty early. Came home. Ate. Webcam with Jenny for a litto bit. Time to start on my korean essay.Arg

You're so behind... and I just don't have the energy to catch you up on things you don't give a shit about.
Because if you gave a shit, you would've made time.
It's like you're in another world, and you take no interest in being a part of mine.
This relationship is not a fucking obligation. Don't you dare make it one.

Day 51

Goooood day today. Lots of gay laughs heheheheh. I swear to god every time I'm with Jenny we do the dumbest things and the gayest shit happens HAHAHAHAHAHAHA... Church was ..church. Had some good laughs there. "BYAH" AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAOSDJVSA. We watched inglorious basterds.. Eheheheheh there were some pretty funny parts in there I will admit. Fucking Jenny initiated a water fight with me........... I was peeing but I didnt lock the door and all of a sudden Jenny barges in and sprays me with fucking water spray bottle shit LOL I WAS IN SHOCK FOR LKE A BILLION SECONDS. BUt den of course I exacted my revenge on her.. hehehehe. Sneak attack like 2 hours later. ^___^V And lots of other gay shit AEHafhaflefnajea that I'm too embarrassed to even talk about :')  Jenny you so lucky you have a friend who tolerates such a ridiculous amount of fucking weirdness. HAHAHAHA <3333 NO SCHOOL TOMORROW YAYYYYYYY what a good feeling *_*  k peace out

OoOoOOooo

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What I really, really want............... none of you can give me.

Day 50

Went to jasmines. Watched Burlesque, Community, and Jersey Shore.....lolz. We were extremely desperately hungry so we ran in the rain all the way to 7-11 and back...;_; f u c k I n g cold. But we got food...so.. Yum heheehheeh. Got picked up. Home. I can't believe its already been 50 days HAHAHA I'm about 1/7th of the way there.....


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Day 49

Skipped.... I totally forgot about lolz Friday was chillll af. Rally at school. Afterwards me jenny claudia waited about 2 hours at school for my mom cause she was stuck in traffic;_; but good talks good laughs eehehehehheheheh my mom finally picked us up and treated us to mcdees. Got home. Pigged out. Yumyumyum. Talked some more. Laughed some more. Jenny left pretty early and then my and claudia just had a goooooooood talk. Then she went home after like an hour confusion with her mom about where I lived LOL;_; I just went on computer a little bit, phone, ktfo.

Day 48

Holy s h i t what fucking  good movie.............. *_*  eehehehehehhehe so good....... Today was good. I luv this weather ♥ School was whatever. Nothing special. I got a 95% on my math test though yayayay. I really think I might be able to get straight As this semester if I just keep this up. Except I need to raise my korean grade. FUCK KOREAN AUIJGFKANFKJAF,MAF so much tiny little assignments I always forget.............-_- she gives out way too much classwork.. way too much homework........... gah. After school Jason dropped me off at lees much danks! Got picked up like right after I got there though... Got me sum mcdees. Then settled in front of my computer to watch this gooooooood ass movie. At first from looking at the movie poster I thought it was some kind of slavery thing like this white man helps a black guy escape or some shit HAHAHA WAY OFF BASE SHAAAHAHAHA. */spoiler alert/* I sobbed so much in the scene with Brooks... I was literally in an ocean of my own tearz for 10 minutes.. ;_; */end LOLZ/* anyways... tomorrow is Friday. and rally day. Then 3 day weekend. GOOD SHIT tgif bye

Day 47

I would rather not discuss today. One of my worst days.................. I usually don't let my moods get the better of me but today I was just way too fucking tired to do anything about it........ Sorry in advance if anyone took it personally. Came home and things got a little better. Watched Pride and Prejudice because we're reading it in class lolz. It was an alright movie, but it was a great adaptation of the book ^__^ I thought it did the novel justice heheheh. Which is rare because in most cases, the movies that are based on books usually puts the book to shame.. but yeah. Dinner with dad and robin. Went to BJs... I ordered the wrong thing lolz but it was good nonetheless. Got home. Bugged Robin in his room for a good hour <3333 Finished the movie. Homework.......... this.................................. I feel like poo

What a disaster

Day 46

Schoooool went by pretty fast. I'm pretty sure I aced my math test. And bio test. Heheheh good shit. Went to lees.... Had class... Got picked up. Home!! I was planning on finally getting to watching shawshank redemption but I'm not in the mood to just sit and stare at the computer screen right now.... Gah ill watch it tomorrow. I didn't have anything else to take picture of so here's the lamp I made in 4th grade and I put it up with tape once and its been there ever since ...... Pretty amazing HAHAHA its been there through like the earthquake a few years ago and everything. But yeah that's my paper lamp thing. K peace

I want to help

"You can change who you are, without changing who you were."

A billion times yes...

Day 45

Happy valentines day!! Today was alright..... I really didn't want to wake up today-_- ..... But of course, I had to. It was really cute watching everyone walk around with all these flowers and gifts and chocolate!! Jasmine made some really good chocolate and passed it out to sum people it was yummy hehehehehe. Stayed at lees for a little until I got picked up. Had sushi q (again yay) for dinner with my momma. She brought the cupcakes today.. HAHAHAHA SO GOOOOOOD. Best cupcakes ever, not counting home made ones ^__^ k well I have a dozen tests tomorrow and I have to get my ass studying so bye!!

http://hiiiiiiiiiroze.blogspot.com/

Changed my address.. maybe it'll keep things more private-er....
I think my followers can still read it and see on their dashboard but that's kool
 I'd just prefer if you guys could kinda refrain from giving it out

Wow I didn't realize

I'm over it but sometimes the memories just pop out of nowhere.................... and it still kind of hurts. Hahaha oldddddd!

Yessssssss

How do you deal with your enemies?
People who have enemies are people who need enemies, and I don’t find that a particularly healthy way to live. I can disagree with people, compete with people, and even oppose people without the need for an enemy.

VIA COKETALK

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Formstack Submission for form Ask Me at 02/13/11  2:01 PM

Someone Asked: your clean streak for ..drugs? sex? hoes? bitches? jiggalos?

ANYTHING ELSE?!?!?! 

Day 44

I want more:(

Funny fucking day. Woke up so tired............. Got ready, went to church. Me Jenny Chris Jason Chris and Grace all beaner packed Kevin's car to Sushi Q for their anniversary $5 all you can eat sushi buffet thing. I think I am now officially claustrophobic lolz -_- we got there and it was so packed..... Jeezuz.We met some of the GSC girls there and idk they told us the selection wasn't good.. so weren't about to eat but then Jenny and I found out there was spicy. tuna. *_* and the guy gave us discount so admission for $3  heheheheheheh so yeah we of course got it. Went in and got plates full of spicy tuna. Omg so good. Especially for $3 ah what a bargain.... cause spicy tuna is honestly all Jenny and I ever get anyways heheheheheh. SO YUMMY. Everyone eventually left except me and Jenny cause my mom was picking us up a bit later.. so we just talked. Caught up, and what not ^__^V then we headed over to my house. My mom got her dolcissimo cupcakes... I was lyk dude mama wheres ours :'( but she said she's getting ours tomorrow at this bomb cupcake place near Irvine where she teaches called Sprinkles I think yayayayayayayayayayaya I can't wait!!! We got to my house and.......... wow let the gayness begin. So much shit happen I laughed so hard today HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. FUNNIEST THING EVER: I RECORED JENNY SINGING IN SPANISH. AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA FUCK SO FUNNY I WAS SOBBING FROM LAUGTER. LIKE LITERALLY SOBBING. She made me delete it (violation of 1st amendment -_--__-_--_-) so don't ask me for it but omfg.. I wish everyone could've been there to witness Queen Gay at her finest *_* Like after Jenny found out I recoreded she looked like she wanted to kill me. omgz so funny. And I kept playing it over and over again... laugh cry laugh cry rinse and repeat ehhehehehehehe omfg. I'm giggling as I type this :') and dude Jenny seriously wanted to kill me so I had to defend myself by turning on the straightener to keep her away ;_; HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA highlight of my nite. Happy pre-valentines day everybody!!!!!!

The point here is,

Whatever I want to do, I know I won't regret it.
BUT WHAT. DO. I. WANT.





.....................My blog is becoming too personal for comfort.........................

Reality Check

Half of me definitely does not want to go back to all that
And the other half keeps remembering how incredibly fun it was
I tell myself I can control it. But that's what everyone says.
I've always prided myself in keeping my priorities in check...
I still know what should come first and what shouldn't. But I'm starting to just. not. care.
Not good. What to do

Day 43

herrro

Went to terrys. Went to some pho house but I just stayed in sangs car and lied down in the back cause I was too tired. Back to terrys. Sang bring me home. GOOD NIGHT

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Formstack Submission for form Ask Me at 02/09/11  8:10 PM

Someone Asked: So since wf night I've finally broken my clean streak hahahaha
Oh hahahaha. I'm assuming this is the same person who asked me what my clean streak was. Well, to answer your question: It was..... exaclty what it sounded like it was. Forgive me for not wanting to dive deeper into the topic!!

Formstack Submission for form Ask Me at 02/10/11  7:06 PM

Someone Asked: Why cant we be more than just friends?

Well for one, I have no idea who you are. 

Day 42

Monsters.............

Missed this day too-_- agh. Whatever. Went to house of korean kbbq after school with the girls and some of the guys... We ate for like 2 hours *_* HAHAHA or no let me rephrase that. Claudia and I ate for like an hour like normal people. June jenny adriana ate 2 hours straight nonstop... HAHAHAHAHA crazy-_-... We didn't have a ride so we decided to bus it back to dbhs... We were so scared we wouldn't be able to find the bus but we left the restaurant and the bus stop was literally like 10 paces in front of it ^__^V there were 2 bus stops though.... The one we were at and another across the street but they were both 482... So we just were like w/e and went on the bus of the stop we were originally at.... GG BUT IT WAS THE WRONG BUS LOLSDVASDAJSD it was like 15 minutes in and it makes a stop and the bus driver says we all need to pay 50 extra cents and we were like wait wtf and adriana made sure and asked if it was headed to db and the driver was like "~LOL~ NO THAT'S THE BUS OF THE STOP ACROSS THE STREET" .... ;_____; but okie this the fucking lucky part we were at the stop at puente hills mall and it turned out junes mom was there at that exact moment so in the end we got off at the mall and junes mom took us home.... Hehehehehehhehehe :') we then went to junes. Talked. Laughed. Then I took jenny home came home shower sleep~

Day 41

hi grace face

Missed sorry;_; school. Lees. Home sleeeeep. Not a very eventful day lolz

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har

Finding out the truth is .1% intuition and 99.9% ASKING THE PERSON PERONALLY.  Absolutely nothing is reliable until you hear it directly coming out of the persons's lips. Don't fuck yourself over by assuming you know what's up. More often than not, you don't.

Day 40

School. Pho with jasmine. Ice cream. Chips. Dropped jasmine off. Came home. Sleep. Computer. Webcam. GIVE ME YOUR OOVOOZ

I wish you guys were happier

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Formstack Submission for form Ask Me at 02/08/11  8:27 PM

Someone Asked: wot was yor clean streak

.......... Not understanding the question

LOL

I don't give a shitttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt

Day 39

School was school. Zooomed by hehehe I love late starts *_* went to junes after.. Talked a bit!! Then lees. Stayed extra because I didn't do my lees homework... MR LEE NEVER CHECKS HW URG WHY TODAY...... And I was hungry as fuck. Literally was about to faint fromt starvation HAHAHAHA so peanut drove me to del taco yayayayay <3 came homeeee. Watched some shows. MATH BENCHMARK TOMORROW fuck I didn't study at all..... Thug life ;____;

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Formstack Submission for form Ask Me at 02/01/11 12:15 AM
Someone Asked: bio honors?
Sorry this question was way overdue lololol uuuuh nope bio regular

I have 2 very big pet peeves

#1 Nosy motherfuckers
#2 Passive aggressiveness

-_- gah

Day 38

MISSED. ANOTHER. DAY :( and I don't even have a legitamate reason this time......................... I should just give up lololol omg zo pointless... but it'd be such a waste. I've already come 1/12th of the way. HAHAHAHAHA valentines day soon!!! cant wait to see everyone carrying flowers and chocolates and little stuffed bears *_* such a cute "holiday". Went to Ashley Wang's after school today... gah it's been such a long time since we talked... even though I only stayed for like 10 minutes before getting picked up lolol but another day for sure we are playing!!!!!!!!!! I MAKE SURE OF IT! today was whatever. Went by hella fast though. Late start tomorrow. Omg when Alex lied and said it wasn't tomorrow.. I was going to cry. and have a heart attack. But thankfully he was just being the bully he always is and was lying hehehehehe jk i luv you arex if you're reading this which I doubt LOL. So since wf night I've finally broken my clean streak hahahaha. Whatevaaa blah I just decided to fuck it. I DO WHAT I WANT. I'm a smart girl. I can keep my stuff togethar. Anyways, besides that. Things have been subtley changing lately.... It's amazing how such a light, small conversation I had with Jenny maybe a week ago affected me so much. *_*... yeah. hi jenny. you know what im talkin bout haahahahahaha. THINGS ARE LOOKING GOOD. I'm happy, for the most part. Yes I am aware of how extremely bipolar my posts are... I'm like happy in one. Then sad. then happy. It's one of my more unattractive qualities ^__^V k peace

o m g I swear I was happy just a moment ago

Dear you,

You drive me fucking insane sometimes. You make me feel like shit... to put it simply. Honestly, there are times when I feel like everything you say and everything you do comes from ... some sort of obligation.. And I feel like I'm a burden to you. I'm not forcing you into a friendship, I hope you realize that. No one's stopping you from walking out. Obviously I won't want it. I'd get terribly sad. Probably even mad. But when it comes down to it, it's all up to you.... ....The things you say.... they're not even directed towards me (maybe) but I still get hurt and all wound up...!!@#!@#!!!! Then, rather than getting upset at you I get upset at ME. Because I feel like I'm doing everything wrong. .............. And maybe I am. -_- or maybe this is just another one of my flashes of emotions that will fade away in a couple hours. Maybe. Maybe not. So many maybes. I hate maybes.a ikjfnsafksadfnsd they're so.. undefined.. vague.. uncertain... =____= i hate myself when I'm like this. I feel so vulnerable, lolz....Fuck me I mess up everything


MY MIND NEEDS TO STFU

Day 37

School tomorrow -_- asuhfdkjashsakf. SORE AS FUCK. I can barely walk omg... :( woke up (very very reluctantly) for church... afterwards went to jenny's for a bit. talked.. laughed.. talked. then my mom picked me up and we went to eat pho. twas good. But I hate when you eat pho and you pretty much end up reeking of pho -__--_-_ urg. It is not an attractive smell LOL it smells like BO... hahsdfhafhahahahaha went to walmart to finally but a mic to match my netbook's webcam.. I CAN WC TO THE FULLEST POTENTIAL NOW!! yayayayay so get at me on fb or something and give me your oovoo ID ^_^__^_^_^_^ first actual mic+camera wc sesh in like over a year with jenny today. so funny hAHAHAHA YYYYYYY BABY YYY LOL and her new hairstyle choice... o god. hahahahahaha good stuff. forgot how fun wcing was :) chris join us later for a little bit. then we all dispersed. fb. tumblr. gah winterformal was just yesterday but it feels like a blur.. !!! spent most of the day on fb saying  "hi nice meeting you" toall the poeple i met HAHAHAHA fucking grace and rachel... :') K GN

Day 36

Fuck I know ... Missed another day. But whatever can't blame me... Winter formal today HAHAHAHA good shit. Fell twice-_-_-_-_- sigh... Once on the bus cause it was so unsteady and then on the dancefloor when sang and I were tryna get to the group and I fell over on my butt. Shit hurt:( walnut winter formal was chill.. No cutting of the bracelets so you can pretty much dance wherever and however LOL and the dj played much better songs. No katy perry and no "teenage dream" as every other song-_-haahaha got a fucking painful foot cramp though ;_; ah..... So basically how my day went: woke up at 7... Got ready. Went to jasmines. She curled my hair. Sang scooped me up. Went to brians. Chilled, took pictures, met everyone HAHAHA ~mingled~... And then we headed over to say cheese and take pictures. Camera whored at the apple store LOL... Got our pictures and went to coconut bay to eat. Then went to this girl named kathleen's to meet up for party bus. Party bus > limo by a billion times HAHAHAHA pre dancing in the bus~ then yeah danced at the actual venue. Rode bus back to kathleens. stayed there for a little to arrange ride's to freddie's. Good shit hahahahahah and yeah. sang dropped me off at home maybe half an hour ago. ....sooOooOo this post is for everyone who's gonna ask me how winter formal went LOOOLOL fuck I'm tired okie good night

Day 35

School. Lee's. Chodang with the girls. Lots of laughs!!! NOONCHI WOMAN AHAHAHAHAAHHAHA... winter formal tomorrow LOL

Day 34

Wasn't taken today but whatever LOL my blog my rules heheheheheh. Today was whatever.. fucking cold though:( spent my whole day at lees..........-_- urgaakjdhfnjfkamdfa...im getting so sick and tired of lees I JUST WANT TO BE ABLE TO GO HOME RIGHT AFTER SCHOOL. DO HW. EAT. NAP. BE AT PEACE........... My emotions have been going berzerk this whole week.. fuck. -_- happy sad angry annoyed happy happy angry happy sad happy............ The majority is happy but just the swings from high to low to back to high is incredibley exhausting... Winter formal in 2 days... It's weird. It doesn't feel like I'm going to WF.. But I'm sure friday night it's gonna hit me hahahaha. okie bye