I've been getting annoyed so easily. Mad so easily. Sad so easily.... I think that so far I've been doing a pretty good job of not letting it show but these days I've been starting to slip. I don't know what to do. Most people would tell me to just let it out to someone but if you really knew me, you'd know I hate talking about things like that. For some reason, it's really hard for me to put my feelings into words, probably partly because I don't even know what it is that I'm feeling. Is it pain? Is it sorrow? Is it anger? SO MANY QUESTIONS!! -_- I don't wanna deal with any of that LOL To be completely honest, what good would it even do? They can't change my circumstance. They can't get me out of my situation. I guess simply listening has its merits but I've come to a point where I'm not going to be content any longer with some emotional outlet... I don't want just a listening ear anymore. I want a cure. I want it to stop. I know what I'm asking for is impossible. So if you don't have what I want to offer, it's competely fine. I've managed to survive this far and I'm confident I can keep going. But I'm not going to lie. Things haven't been getting better. I think it's slowly starting to get to me.................. even though I'm trying really hard not to let it. There's only so much I can take, haha. It really is getting harder and harder for my every day to go out in public and Be Fine. I'd like to keep having hope. I'd like to be able to move forward without being phased. But what I'd like and what's happening are two very different things.
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Why?
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