Y DOES THIS KEEP HAPPENING TO ME
why why why why why

Idk. Am I being selfish? For wanting both things to work out.
It's like, if one is going good, the other isn't. And vice versa.
Wtf.

I've been very moody lately.
My head hurts from thinking about the same things over and over constantlyyyyyyyyyyy
Someone to talk to would be nice.
But at the same time, I don't want to talk to anyone.
Idk if that makes sense.
I realized despite how..idk, outoing?.. I am, I'm actually a very private person.
Most people think they know me but they really don't.
And sometimes it really pisses me off when they act like they know me but they really have next to no clue.
Yeah, I could easily just tell people everything and solve the problem, but I like to keep most things private.
So it's probably no one's fault but mine that people sometimes assume shit about me.
..... -_-
I think some of ~closer~ friends don't even really know me any better than any other normal friend.
Which is kind of sad. LOL.
I just don't like talking about actual personal stuff. The topic is a very uncomfortable one for me.
Which creates problems for me when things come up and I can't/don't want to let it out to someone.
HAhahaha omg I'm ridiculous........

I have no idea where any of you are anymore.

Blah blah blah blahanlahadgakensgfm,ansdgvkjesmdg. Things are different. I'm not exactly sure how I feel about anything at this point. I'm trying to figure it out but I can't. ~enigma~

One of the hardest things for me is trying to figure out when to give up and when to try harder.

On Cinema

Morning Glory. If you're reading this, you need to one, stop reading, and then two, go make plans to watch this movie. One of the best movies I've seen. HP7 can suck its dick. HAHAHAHAHA jk you can't really compare the two (they're both too different). I luv rachel mcadams. But yeah plz go watch, I laughed so much and cried so much :')
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Black Friday

Today was veryvery nice ...Something I really needed, like a sort of break from all the negative thoughts and feelings I'd been having lately. Good carefree fun did me some good. Got caught up with the girls I'd been painfully missing: Angella and Sophia yay. Shopping with Angella then met up with Sophia to go ice skating. And then jammed my pinky finger on this metal plate-_- hurt like fuck... I'm thinking it might be fractured or something idk but I'm getting it checked tomorrow.. Hopefully its something minor so I can see my other mains tomorrow!!! Crossing my fingerz. Good night :)
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You are all so fucking typical. Congratulations ^_^